Kanye West spent his Thanksgiving delivering a candid prayer about gratitude, his family and his mistakes, or “misactions.” The 44-year-old stood on a dimly lit stage surrounded by his Sunday Service Choir for the five-minute monologue, which he uploaded to his Instagram account on Thursday (Nov. 25).
Throughout the prayer, Ye reflected on his ongoing divorce with his estranged wife Kim Kardashian.
“All I think about everyday is how I get my family back together and how I heal the pain that I’ve caused,” he said. “I take accountability for my actions — new word alert — misactions. The one thing all my successes and failures have in common is me.”
Two of those “misactions” Kanye opened up about were his issues with alcoholism and controlling his anger. The Chicago native admitted he “would drink to take the stress away, to knock the edge off.”
“Drinking affected my health and the health of people around me, because I already had a hair-trigger temper and this just heightened it,” he added.
Ye also reflected on his mental health. The Donda crafter said, “I went into a manic episode in 2016 and I was placed under heavy medication. Since then, I went on and off the medication, which left me susceptible to other episodes, which my wife and family and fans have had to endure.”
Kanye also spoke about his failed run for president last year. He acknowledged that he “ran for president without proper preparation and no allies on either side.” Ye also addressed his infamous campaign rally in Charleston, South Carolina; where he revealed he and Kim considered abortion during her first pregnancy.
“I embarrassed my wife in the way that I presented information about our family during the one and — thank God — only press conference,” he said. “All my dad had to say afterwards was, ‘Write your speech next time, son.’”
Ye signed off the prayer on a note of gratitude. “This Thanksgiving, I’m thankful for the family that my wife has given me, I’m thankful for the life that God has given me and I’m thankful for your time, attention and patience. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”
Watch his full Thanksgiving prayer on Instagram below.