Yesterday (October 4), Kid Cudi made his private life public when he shared, via a revealing Facebook post, that he had admitted himself into rehab for depression and suicidal ideation, struggles he admitted to having for "as long as" he can remember.
Feeling both ashamed and apologetic, the rapper disclosed that he is rarely "at peace" and that the troubles have hindered him from making friends and leaving the house. Hopeful, however, Cudi said that made the move for his family and fans, that his upcoming album Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin' is still on track to be released, and that he plans to come back "stronger."
Fellow artists have taken to social media to show support. Read Cudi's letter and their positive messages below.
Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I've been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.
Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me. If I didn't come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.
I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.
If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.
Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.
I love you,
Praying for my dawg cudi. We love u bro. U mean everything to us. Ur life is to important to us in ways u don't understand. DONT FORGET— TRAVIS SCOTT (@trvisXX) October 5, 2016
YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO US. I MAKE MUSIC CUZ OF U.WE NEED U— TRAVIS SCOTT (@trvisXX) October 5, 2016
IM LISTENING TO EVERY CUDI ALBUM TODAY. I DONT WANNA HEAR SHIT ELSE— TRAVIS SCOTT (@trvisXX) October 5, 2016
Wishing Kid Cudi much peace love and meditation.— Wiz Khalifa (@wizkhalifa) October 5, 2016
Get well soon king cudi @KidCudi 🙏🏾 we all praying for you.— zoey dollaz (@ZoeyDollaz) October 5, 2016
Sending my love to @KidCudi we love u legend— Theophilus London (@TheophilusL) October 5, 2016
I think Kid Cudi is extremely brave for sharing this moment in his life as well as taking steps to better himself..sending ❤️ and positivity— Karrueche Tran (@karrueche) October 5, 2016
Sending lots of love, prayers and support to @kidcudi ... I don't know you but I know that God is able.. I have not experienced this journey from where you sit but I watched someone battle depression & they're no longer here to tell the story.. I claim in the name that it will be different for you & you will help others once you conquer all that you're faced with.. What you shared took great courage & I pray you get enormous positive vibes & sincere support ... Blessings to you..🙏🏽
Thinking of @KidCudi tonight and his brave message about his depression. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️— Tegan and Sara (@teganandsara) October 5, 2016
❤️💪🏻 @KidCudi speaking out and letting the world see your humanity is inspiring- always got your back my dude...— peteachu (@petewentz) October 5, 2016
Too often Black communities think mental illness is taboo & fail to realize it's like other diseases. We applaud @kidcudi for seeking help.— REVOLT TV (@RevoltTV) October 5, 2016