On Thursday night (May 13), Nicki Minaj graced Instagram with a live session intended to prep fans for the re-release of her Beam Me Up Scotty mixtape, which became available on streaming services at midnight. The live was her first time addressing fans and their many questions following her brief musical hiatus and a few teases of her return earlier this week. Viewers were updated on Nicki’s son and the writer’s block that Drake helped her overcome. Supporters subscribed to her mailing list, however, received an additional letter informing them of things that occurred amid her absence like the tragic death of her father.

Robert Maraj was killed in a hit-and-run accident in February that took place in the Long Island neighborhood of Mineola, New York. He was reportedly walking on the road when a 1992 white Volvo struck him and left the scene. He was taken to a local hospital and listed in critical condition, eventually dying as a result of his injuries.

“[Though] I can’t really bring myself to discuss the passing of my father as of yet, I can say it has been the most devastating loss of my life,” Nicki wrote. “I find myself wanting to call him all the time. More so now that he’s gone. Life is really funny that way. May his soul rest in paradise. He was very loved and will be very missed.”

Since Maraj’s passing, Charles Polevich, the driver behind the fatal incident, turned himself into police. Members of the Nassau County Police Department believe he checked to see if Nicki’s father was okay before he fled the scene and then secluded his car inside “the detached garage at his residence.” He has since been indicted on charges of leaving the scene of an incident involving death and tampering. Nicki’s mother, Carol Maraj, later filed a $150 million civil suit against him.

“Paul Napoli and I have filed a $150 million lawsuit in the hit-and-run death of Robert Maraj, [Nicki Minaj’s] father,” Benjamin Crump tweeted at the time. “Charles Polevich was not only irresponsible & negligent in hitting Maraj, but was more concerned about running away and hiding than seeking help.”

“Polevich’s behavior was criminal, cowardly and immoral,” he added. “We will hold him responsible for his reckless actions that led to Robert Maraj’s death!”